How do I describe my mental health problems? – like being on a station platform waiting for the train to come in, knowing sometimes it will pass, sometimes I will get on and stay on for some stops down the line. If I feel like I might have to get on the train, I shout for help. Someone will come along and pull me off at some point or ideally stop me getting on in the first place. I have reached the point where I can pull myself off if it doesn’t go too far down the line. (The end of the line being depression). It’s taken me a long time to recognise that I need to do that for myself.
Managing in crisis is one thing but far better not to get to crisis in the first place.
It’s about balance,
it’s about checking in with myself and others,
it’s about time alone,
it’s about knowing that if I stuff up its ok
It’s about sleep,
it’s about eating and drinking properly,
it’s about goal setting,
it’s about doing what’s right for me,
it’s about fun stuff,
it’s about knowing some days I will achieve a lot,
it’s about knowing some days I will achieve very little,
it’s about sorting things out so problems don’t grow bigger,
it’s about spending time with the right people,
it’s about avoiding the wrong ones,
it’s about helping others,
it’s about making a difference,
it’s about working on something with other people,
it’s about forgiving myself for the past,
it’s about forgiving others,
it’s about getting to know myself better,
it’s about being me,
it’s about knowing that a relationship on any level is a two-way street.
I am a work in progress but I live in hope that one day I will not get on the train at all.