<p><strong>I have changed my qualifications from Classical Studies and Philosophy to an Open Degree in Psychology and Language Studies. I wanted to do something I&#8217;m more familiar with. I&#8217;m studying at Open University, and I like it so far, although I&#8217;m in the first stage of my bachelor&#8217;s.</strong></p>
<p>Since my education was delayed due to mental illness and my disabilities, I decided that the &#8220;last&#8221; option was distance learning. Imagine my surprise when I found out that it was so much easier than regular on-campus studies with much harsher routines, which was what I was used to. Used to fail, I mean. Now I feel what studying is supposed to be feeling; rewarding and exciting. Sure, there are expectations and a schedule, but it shouldn&#8217;t be all about stress and feeling like a failure. Being at the edge of burnout shouldn&#8217;t be normal.</p>
<p>My story contains abuse, sexual assault, domestic violence and so much more. I also have childhood trauma. I hated school growing up. I was a generic student, but I never studied. I skipped classes a lot. I thought that I was just stupid, but later my psychologist pointed out that I actually was more logically-advanced than most people in my age group, and that I certainly wasn&#8217;t stupid. I was above the average, so it was hard for me to study due to my autistic traits – and not to the act of learning itself. I hated all the noise in classrooms, I hated the light in classrooms – it was too bright for my eyes! I hated to be asked questions and talk in front of people. And all the group work and discussions&#8230; it was plain torture for a socially awkward, silent autistic kid such as myself.</p>
<p>So what did I like? I liked reading and writing. I actually enjoyed learning, but on my own terms and at my own pace. I loved researching topics I enjoyed. I loved learning but hated the school environment.</p>
<p>A few years ago there wasn&#8217;t much distance learning around, and certainly not in Sweden, where I live. When I found Open University, I also found hope! Maybe I am able? Maybe I&#8217;m not just disabled at everything? In comes self-esteem with studying and succeeding in our academic careers. I had none of that before I studied – first at a vocational training in Gothenburg, and now with OU.</p>
<p>I know I&#8217;m not the only one either.</p>
<p>Most of the people in my family aren&#8217;t highly educated. I want to aim high because I can and I want to, not because I should. I&#8217;ve always dreamed of going to grad school and researching in the field of psychology. I&#8217;ve always dreamed of being able to study for a higher education. Now I&#8217;m there.</p>
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